Brush my teeth with a bottle of jack.

4 days until the curtains close, ending a explosive, unpredictably mysterious year. And hmm, currently at Beijing with cousin and her family. :O (yep, scheduled post) Sure it is nice to see snow, but sadly I couldn't see my first snow with my dear baby :( and also the crazy ass weather. I was pretty good at withstanding cold since I was born, I went to tour Europe with my parents when I was a few months old during the end of the year, and also slept with only singlet and shorts at the hotel directly outside Mount. Fuji back in 2006 :P

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Look at how bubbly and irresistibly cute and seductive am I back then ^___^

But in these recent years to save electricity and help mom to reduce the expenses I started to sleep with only the fan. And somehow it took away my *cough* god like resistance towards the cold and gradually need the blanket more and more T__T

Two days ago I slept with the aircon at the temperature of 24 degrees celcius and I actually shivered a bit FML.

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Anyway, here are my thoughts of this year.

 There goes my high school life, detached from the familiar. My class wasn't the best to be in because we are not united at all to be frank. but I am very grateful that there are many little happy things to be left behind my mind like the jokers with their daily dose of retardation and the mischievous behavior no student in our school would dare to show :D (pfft pussies, thank god I am off without em now.)

AND YEAH, MY VERY FIRST COMPETITION IN MY HIGH SCHOOL LIFE :D State level public speaking! :D But yeah I didn't even get through the auditions due to sudden attack of flu and -_- scumbag brain went blank for awhile. :x

Pre concert schooling days were the biggest bombs, no classes for around 2 months.

 Just dance, gotta be okay, cause we were being total camsluts and free :)

Concert was fun, and this year my dear boy came to watch me groove to Sunny :x My first proper school concert, (last year was also awesomely spent, with him :3 ) and my very last one.

Oh looks like we have a pair of badass here. Sign said no pairs in this area.

Back in Sri Garden I didn't have a chance to go to any school trips because they were simply fucking overpriced and it wasn't worth it when you have nobody to have fun with.

Awkwardly in the middle.

 In these 2 years I attended many camps (that is a lot for me! :O ) and they did many good to me, most of the time. Last year was my very first monitor board camp, and also the VERY first official position I got in school followed by being a part of the glamourous on the surface editorial board -_-.
I don't even know how I made it through the likings and approval haha.

*shitass proud face*

One thing I did regret about is not being a prefect, (HOW THE HECK I GET THE OFFER I DON'T EVEN.) but I think it is still a right choice because it brought me peace, which is what I really need before I leave school. Jealousy, jealousy every fucking where. Shallow cunts.

Back to the topic -__-

Well I attended more camps this year. This March I actually had camps EVERY weekend except for 1 week which I had my term break. O_O it wasn't intential, but sometimes when life goes very wrong till the state that you couldn't bear and your heart goes numb, a short vacation really work wonders.
After a camp, you would have to go for another briefing, pack your stuff, explore, come back and it goes on and on... The anxiety and sorrow will somehow fade as you force yourself to look ahead the next destination you are about to head.

Cherating,1003-1203 was the best one I ever had. The start of a small girl power group and a few strangers scattering around combining into a huge group of idiots who don't give 2 shits about the the fucked up schedules and ignorant teachers, learning how to party hard in 3 days with the ultimate freedom we had. I will never forget bathing together with my girls, guys moaning in the shower, sleeping only for 30 mins on the first night, the doggy style train we did with clay, the paranoia I had while the others sneak liquor in my bag, and the random decision of jogging at 5am to the nearby beach and ran back to the hotel because of a sudden thunder storm. -_-

You can never have too much of perfection. The two other camps were like, fuck. Especially interact club. I couldn't fit in at all, the place was horrible, much worse than FIRM area in Tekam.

Well, the highlight of the camp was  ....

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LAUGH COW. LAUGH. ZZ

Flying fox with your primary school bully who tried to bring you down in your new high school.

Monitors one was less boring, had less fuckities but cbf talking about it. :) But here is a jump shot of me at the historical, old English building  :D

 

IT IS ACTUALLY A FREAKING SCHOOL WTF. Why other schools and buildings don't look like this? :/

Moving on..

Maybe at this point my relationship with my closest friends is on the rocks once again, but before this, it has been a very long time since I found long term comfort from other people. It has been long since I felt acceptance from a group of people, the relief of being able to pour out your heartfelt feelings to someone who could listen, the jokes you will get out of randomness and.. youth.

 This year was also the year which I felt that much of care from people around me. Like the time when I caught a cold, friends brought me herbal candy, chinese tea packs and honey :') Friends who are actually bothered to ask how are you doing at home or at school. Of all the friends I have never experienced such a wonderful feeling being cared about by the people you call friends.

I will not forget to praise the beauty of two things in life, number one: time, for letting me to grow as I slowly need to step in to adulthood. The time I had which actually taught me what is the exact feeling of true feelings of love and affection. 

Also learnt back the true meaning of caring for a friend. Making them happy on their special day. Even most of us are stingy/broke we will rock that bitch's world and scar that juicy brain. Most memorable one was Jasmine's birthday. Sooooo hard to keep a surprise for her. Baby bull baked a cake for her and also trolled her to the max by wrapping her gift 7289393 times...

 The face change is priceless ^^

 And fate is the number two on the list because it is purely amazing that you could actually reconnect with your year one best friend after around 9 years of not talking. Many baby steps were taken from getting to know each other, gaining trust and courage to expose the darkest secrets and fears we never talked to anyone about, being siblings, and then finally, the cow and pig became to one. Though I had made my mistakes of running away from how I feel, but we are together for 6 months and still going on <3

A few actually pointed out that we actually have VERY similiar characters O_O Actually it's a bit true haha. Sometimes I do think that I am just a less intelligent and alert version of him haha wtf. >.<
Thousands of thank yous will never be enough to tell him how thankful am I for having him in my life, despite the mistakes I have made. I love you baobei moo <3 Definitely I have more to say but keep it for the later hee.

I would definitely miss the days when my baby accompanies me home by LRT from the bus station I passed by everyday after school. Baby had to go all the way to town from Maluri just to see me everyday as he could <3

 Cow still keeping this little birthday note I wrote to him 10 years ago. AND WTF FOR A SEVEN YEAR OLD MY WRITTING LOOKS SO OLD O___O  Not too sure what is below my name though..

 Oh. Here is a happy family portrait with momma and son in law.

 Despite this is SPM year for me, by now I can actually conclude that I seriously did not give a fuck about SPM. Played hard enough to end my last schooling year. Only had last minute study sessions before exams and those rare moments when I could actually absorb everything at tuition. >.<

was attempting to be sleeping buddha wtf.

After much hopes and praying, a scream of  FUCKKK YEAAAAHHH at the hallway ends the most useless public examination in my life, while welcoming freedom and another chapter of life. :D Everything seemed fine to me except maths and history, but what I say now is pointless as the result speaks it all next year. -yaomingface-

After much dubious feelings towards psychology  I decided not to take it next year. Sometimes reading through the books I have bought brings me a lot of questions, especially those why women can't read maps and men won't ask for directions books blablabla. Oh, and relationship aids. Sure some are useful, sometimes we need to stop and ask ourselves a few things before jumping to a certain conclusion of our partner. Sure we should know better alternatives to have important discussions and reduce arguments. But how sure is everyone that, all human brains in individual genders are programmed in the same manner? Many of these men vs women books have described how horrible human beings are men are. For me I think how a man (anyone) is now is based on many factors, not completely on genetics and nerves.

Psychologists have came out with many theories on empathy among humans but why our society is still unchanged? Why too many, does not implement what is well, supposedly good for the world?

I have considered designing as an alternate path but then I realized that the reason why people think that I am good in art because I am pretty good copying elements here and there and also many people do not bother on the white spots I can't be bothered to fill in. In the end I think that creativity AND reasonably average mathematical ability is VERY crucial to survive.

Many have pointed out that I should do well in mass communications/ management. So why not give it a go?

As for where do I head for college I will try to find out in this few months. An education expo will be held soon this week, will drag my boy along :)

As the year ends, it is also an end for many things.

1. No more school uniform. NOT gonna miss the horrible skirt length, but the fact that I don't have to think of what to wear everyday. D:

2. No more daily dose of retardation, hopefully at least for these few months till college..

3. No more tuition = also a time where I gain my freedom to do what I want :/

4. No more showing lesbian affection often HAHA.

Oh look, a micro dildo in my mouth

5. NO MORE COMPLAING ABOUT SUCKY FUCKED UP EMBARASSING PRIDE TEARING MIND BLOWING INTERACT CLUB MUAHAHAHAHAHAA. No more boring and empty agendas. No more ridiculous major planning for bringing the school's name down. No more unreasonable and insecure bitch supervisors WOOHOO.

WHY SO SERIOUS????

 Note to self, no bodycon skirts -__- For some reason they just keep going up and up and up, it just doesn't freaking stay in place o0o

 

How the fuck did I last until end of service I wonder. So fucking proud of myself ^__^

I am cocky but I don't show it.

6. AND NO MORE studying useless subjects like history. Edited, racist history. 

7. No black and dull hair? -face glitters- Going to have matching hair colours with the cow. BLUE MEHEHEHEH. Hopefully he won't change his mind >_<

8. No more sports day after 10 YEARS OMFG. Most happy because I never joined sports day heehee. The only time I did was form 2 as a substitute for someone and embarassed myself for being the last turtle to cross the line T_T

9. NO MORE TWILIGHT D: D: I don't really like it in the first place because of the screwed up frustrating endings but after reading the book I find the book has many delicate, beautiful details. No shits are given if you judge me for that. :)

10. Ummm, no more school? No more waking up bloody early in the morning just to gain knowledge fool around >_< As annoying as it can be....

 YOLO.

And many more to be listed out. 2012 is indeed a well spent year. I have thought, experienced, felt, and realized many things as the story of my life blooms.  I genuinely thank everyone who have been by my side through the ups and downs of the year from the bottom of my heart. Hopefully 2013 welcomes pleasant beginnings after the end of the familiar. :D

The first two posts in this blog has indeed proven that I am a long winded bitch. But it is personal, so who cares? ;D 

Goodbye 2012, you served me well. :)